quarantine feels.

Hi, Filmaholic here!

I hope you are all doing great, or at least the best you can during these trying times, I hope you are staying indoors and washing your hands. I know I don’t have a ton of followers and I really don’t know how many people will read this but I just wanted to say this to whoever might need to hear it or anyone who actually follows my small little blog.

As you know we have been given an immense amount of free time. I have been self-isolating with my family for almost a month, however, two weeks of that month was because I was sick (no, not from that) and when I finally felt better the virus hit my country so it’s been a hot second since I’ve seen the outside world or interacted with it. I tried to look on the bright side and look at how much content I can now be able to write. I already had a ton of movies and shows in mind to review but truthfully, to get my last post up it took a lot. I’ve been feeling very low on energy and determination these last couple of weeks and whenever I try to write something I write for a couple of minutes, get stuck and spend days being stuck and procrastinate as much as humanly possible and I needed to learn that that’s okay.

We are in a very particular time right now, we can’t really say we’ve ever experienced this before and not on this scale for a long time. I think I can speak for a lot of people when I say that we are feeling a ton of feelings, mostly bad and they get worse whenever we check the news which has become almost impossible not to. It’s incredibly important to stay informed but it’s okay to stop reading that article or stop watching that video and do something that you enjoy. Fear is a very powerful emotion and it’s henchmen, stress and anxiety are also very effective. Some people may feel guilt because they feel they’re not doing enough, a great example of this is content creators. I wouldn’t consider myself one but I have to admit, I felt like it was my responsibility to post as much as I can to take your mind off of these horrid times and while I love blogging and reviewing movies and shows, I just haven’t had the energy to do so and I have to accept that instead of piling more unnecessary stress onto my brain.

The blog will still be running during this time, in fact, I may have an album review up this week. I’m very excited about that but in terms of movie reviews for new releases like The Invisible Man, I honestly don’t know if I’ll be able to. I do however have a ton of ideas for some older movies I can review. Again, I’m not saying that they will happen but there’s a possibility. Mostly though the reason why I want to take a breather from blogging is that while I enjoy it, it feels like work, work that I enjoy but still work. I’ve been wanting to practise my drawing and painting for a while now and finally have the chance to do so and I want to be able to do it without feeling guilty about not posting. I need to take things off my mind and I hope you all do too. This is a very stressful time, especially for people who still have to work like my mum who works at a grocery store and medical professionals, doctors and nurses. To all of those people, I am eternally grateful for the work you are putting in, your sacrifice make you all incredible heroes!

I will still hopefully be able to cover TV shows and albums. I have some reviews planned, hopefully, they’ll see the light of day. Basically what I wanted to say though with this unusually personal blog post is that you should use this free time you have however you want, don’t feel pressured to use it wisely. Spend it in a way which makes you feel comfortable, whether that’s catching up on your shows, baking bread, painting, playing with your pets or even laying in bed listening to music.

I hope you all have a lovely day, stay safe and hold it together as much as possible. Fear is the one thing which can truly tear us apart so we need to overcome it now more than ever. We will all get through this together but until then, wash your hands, binge some Netflix and stay safe.

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